Let me just start by saying, I cannot believe it has been a month since I soaped. And, I’m going to tell you why. Because I failed. And, I don’t do well with failure… like, at all. Sometimes I fail in my head before I even start. I talk a good game, and I write-up plans and dreams and lists and objectives, but one small minute detail might not work out. But, more than likely, one of the tiny, negative voices eeks out and whispers “this is stupid” or “you aren’t good enough” then, BLAMO! The towel is thrown in, and I’m done.
Other times, I am able to do. I dream and scheme. Think and plan, and draw and escape in my mind and craft up the perfect scenario. And, mind you, I’m not just talking about soap, people. I’m talking about… anything. Sometimes, the planning takes time because I agonize over all the details and I think about all of the different scenarios. And, I execute. Oh, the steps that are painfully and carefully planned out and then they come out to play in the real world and are completed only… something misfires and the end result? Pfffft.
Sigh. And then? Well, and then. All of the motivation to “do” dwindles. Because… all of those internal voices that I was able to quiet down in my planning. Every word of negativity and failure that was crushed under the boot of creativity and planning starts to come forward because of one failure. One. And they grow louder and louder still until you are immobile once again, with the fear of moving forward because you might fail again.
How do you get past that? By changing your perspective.
This is what I am realizing. By changing perspective. There is always going to be something we try that we aren’t good at, or something we do that doesn’t go exactly as planned. Always. But, is it a failure, or an opportunity? That depends 100% on us. See, what I have done this past month since my soap didn’t go as planned? Failure. For the past 28 days, I failed because I chose not to do anything – not one thing – to move forward, or learn from that situation. I remained where I was. Not going forward.
But, what I did yesterday? I changed my perspective and moved on. I decided that I was going to learn from that situation what I could, dust myself off, and move forward. It moved from being a failure to being a success simply because I changed my perspective.
I don’t want my life to be bound up by negativity that I think is there. How stupid is that? I want to be free to do and create and live and LEARN for the next phase so I can keep growing into the perfect masterpiece that God wants for me, and my life. We are so much more than what we can even imagine. It is time to embrace it and let the fear of failure die away once and for all.
Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’